Years ago, my girlfriend was sexually abused by those she worked with. I started dating her and she told me about it. I encouraged her to find something else-unfortunately, I couldn't find the right words and she didn't listen. She continued to work with those people, and I got angry and resentful. Eventually I became very demeaning and belittling toward her, thinking the "shock value" would help her open her eyes and see value in herself and cut the ties with these people, which of course didn't work. Eventually, because she didn't want to acknowledge what happened, but I did (and even vindictively so), I took away the reality that nothing happened and tried to force her to accept the truth, but I was so ill-equipped to do so-I was so angry and frustrated, that what resulted was her transfering that guilt, anger, frustration and resentment that should have been directed at those who hurt her and placed it all on me. Again, I certainly was not a saint when I brought up the issues at the end, but I really wanted what was best. Now, we are apart, I am alone and miserable, clinically depressed and missing her more and more every day. She has a new boyfriend-one she started seeing not even 2 weeks after we broke up (further placing blame on me and further creating a reality where she doesn't have to deal with what happened but can create a false perception that I hurt her) and he is unemployed, went to jail for 3 months of their relationship (they've been "together" for just over 7) and is friends with someone who refers to her as "used tampon." She still associates with the one who sexually harmed her and still believes in the made up perception that I was nothing but bad in her life. Believe me, I've been humbled: I will never ever try to impose my beliefs-I know that while I did have good intentions, I was self righteous and judgmental. All I want right now is to be with her again. I love her. And I miss her so much. I did thank God for her and wanted to be a blessing in her life forever; so many times she would tell me she didn't deserve to be loved, she didn't think she was worth the love I showed her. She was genuinely taken aback, and then filled with joy and satisfaction when I promised her that someday I'd show her what I see in her. I really did do more positive than negative and now I just want another chance. I wish people would pray that she opens her eyes to the users she surrounds herself with. Pray that she realizes she will be much healthier staying away from those who harmed her, that she will never be able to move on until she does so, that she does not deserve to be maimed and thought less of by them. Please pray that she remembers the real me, and not the person who shouted those horrible obscenities to her the last night we were together, but the one who loved her entirely, the one who valued her, the one who felt honored to know her, and who wanted her to feel honored and valued by having him. Please pray that she remembers all the good I did like laser pointer shapes and little poems and spaying her cats. And if it isn't too much, I would ask that you pray we can be with each other again. That she gives me another chance and we can rectify every ill we did. Again, I really love her. And I feel more connected to God when I focus on that feeling. Thank you.