Lord, I confess that I have not always been truthful with you, myself or with others. I have been mean, rude and spiteful to those around me. I have coveted. I have lied. I have lusted. I have done things that I know you would disapprove knowing they were wrong. Lord, I ask for your mercy on me and that you may continue to take me under your wing, though i am not worthy. grant that i may see the way and follow your glorious path. In jesus' name i pray. AMEN

Tuesday, December 9 2008

I feel helplessa and down and depression. I was thinking my dh was cheating on me with another person. I found a picture of him and another one, with their arms around eachother. i didnot like it, and was hurt by it. I wanted to hear him tell me he loves me, and how much i mean to him. I thought about killing myself, after he called scpziro.. I felt so hurt that he would put me down like that.. I know i was wrong to think like that, i just hurt, and didnot want to live anymore.. i already prayed, yet, I wonder if i shouldnot of said anything to him about the video of him and her. Not sure what to think..

Sunday, June 8 2008

I fear that I may have married in bad faith and that this is why my children are so screwed up. I thought my love was enough but I wasn't as passionately in love as romance says one should be and maybe that was the key to the failure of my marriage though many times I thought I loved him a lot.

Saturday, March 8 2008