I spend so much time with my best friend, I think I’ve fallen in love with him.

One weekend while I was away, he called me, drunk, and told me how much he missed me, over and over again.

I can’t stop thinking about him, and don’t know what to do.

Wednesday, March 5 2008

I rebuke satan from my mind probably 100+ times a day. I resent my husband for not working and me being the only one working because he is too scared of rejection and too lazy to get a job.

Friday, May 30 2008

I just moved in with my girlfriend, she is very supportive of me, but she has a lot of emotional issues, and I don’t know I want to deal with them. I am still in love with an old girlfriend and want to marry her, but I don’t know if she would take me back. I’m stuck where I am for the time being and wondering if time will run out…

Thursday, February 28 2008

I lied to my spouse (who I am asking prayers for to restore our marriage) about payments to a fitness center I am going to. I told him a friend paid for the first two months. (Actually she did offer, but I used some of my overtime to pay for it myself.) I feel bad that I had lied.

Sunday, March 23 2008

I once made out with my girlfriend’s best friend in my room while she was staring at us. She said it looked fun. I also crossed dress with said best friend and it was really wierd. I’ll probably do it again. NY girls are soo wierd.

Friday, February 29 2008

i haven’t ever had a real relationship, and i dont know if i’ll ever have one. Whenever i find out that a girl likes me, i cant keep my cool and i push her away.

I also really, really like Radiohead

Wednesday, March 5 2008

my girlfriend tries to act like we’re married. She always makes plans for the next weekend on like Monday morning and always volunteers me to do stuff. Fuck I want to tell her to fuck off sometimes. Wouldn’t be so bad if her idea of a good time wasnt as BORING AS FUCK! Good thing she made me lunch today otherwise I’d consider breaking up with her again. Mmmm pork chop!

Tuesday, March 4 2008

I confess that I was weak tonight in feeling a longing for my husband and hoping to have it met and did not say anything but decided another way to handle it. (I should have told him and maybe it could help heal our relationship and stop the divorce.) Maybe some intimacy would help.

Tuesday, April 8 2008

Really need to vent about family issues. My mother-in-law is dying. My daughter-in-law informed me of this recently, which I appreciated greatly. I now found out that my soon to be ex-husband did not want me to know about his mother. He yelled at our daughter-in-law because she informed me of this information. He does not want me at the funeral, which is his choice and I won’t go against his wishes. I have known this woman for over 20 years, we have had our moments but had not had any problems for many years, I have a great deal of respect for her and her life. I wish that he would allow me a chance to say good-bye to her. I am just now realizing how much anger this man has in him, he really needs to get a grip on things and get on with his life, holding grudges makes for a miserable life. He was there for me when my parents and sisters passed away, I wish that he would let me be there for him. I plan on sending flowers and a card to the family, as well as a card to him. I am hoping that this will help me to deal with her death, and help him as well.

Wednesday, February 27 2008

I am mad at God for not fulfilling His promises

Thursday, April 10 2008