I confess that I was weak tonight in feeling a longing for my husband and hoping to have it met and did not say anything but decided another way to handle it. (I should have told him and maybe it could help heal our relationship and stop the divorce.) Maybe some intimacy would help.

Tuesday, April 8 2008

i spend close to 6 hours a day on the totse message boards i cant help my self its like coke im so addicted to it

Wednesday, February 27 2008

i haven’t ever had a real relationship, and i dont know if i’ll ever have one. Whenever i find out that a girl likes me, i cant keep my cool and i push her away.

I also really, really like Radiohead

Wednesday, March 5 2008

Dear Lord, Please pray for me and my wife. I am so lost my wife and I are on the verge of diviorce. I love her so much and our kids. We just agrue about stupid things and it is hurting us. She said she needs her space and wants to be alone, she is not sure she love me anymore. God please help save my marriage.

Tuesday, May 18 2010

I have been dating a wonderful man for almost a month now. This week a man from my past came back into my life and is trying to sweep me off my feet. I have always loved this man and I want to see if something can develop but I also am falling in love with my new boyfriend. I am playing with fire. I know because I plan to have sex with the man from my past.

Tuesday, May 12 2009

Really need to vent about family issues. My mother-in-law is dying. My daughter-in-law informed me of this recently, which I appreciated greatly. I now found out that my soon to be ex-husband did not want me to know about his mother. He yelled at our daughter-in-law because she informed me of this information. He does not want me at the funeral, which is his choice and I won’t go against his wishes. I have known this woman for over 20 years, we have had our moments but had not had any problems for many years, I have a great deal of respect for her and her life. I wish that he would allow me a chance to say good-bye to her. I am just now realizing how much anger this man has in him, he really needs to get a grip on things and get on with his life, holding grudges makes for a miserable life. He was there for me when my parents and sisters passed away, I wish that he would let me be there for him. I plan on sending flowers and a card to the family, as well as a card to him. I am hoping that this will help me to deal with her death, and help him as well.

Wednesday, February 27 2008

I have been watching a video I made with my boyfriend. I want to destroy it but we are separated so I get to hear his voice& feel his presence. Forgive me Lord

Saturday, May 16 2009

I lied to my spouse (who I am asking prayers for to restore our marriage) about payments to a fitness center I am going to. I told him a friend paid for the first two months. (Actually she did offer, but I used some of my overtime to pay for it myself.) I feel bad that I had lied.

Sunday, March 23 2008

I confess that id rather avoid a situation than deal with it. I confess that im never happy, for more than a day. God help me be happy. please forgive me

Friday, July 31 2009

You wear FAR too much perfume. And its horrible and cheap. It is possibly poisonous. You gave me an asthma attack and a sore, strained throat when you sat next to me. You made my eyes water.

You're very overweight, and no amount of perfume will change that. Exercise, eat less… WEAR LESS PERFUME.

I think I need to go to the doctor because my throat is aching and stinging from keeping it almost closed for an entire hour.

Sit somewhere else.

Wednesday, February 27 2008